Thursday, January 26, 2017
I don't know what to say but thank you. You were the light that helped guide me out of many dark times. I could tell you anything and trusted you unconditionally. I don't know if I will ever truly have another friend, no one can compare. We are connected to each other on another level, something I don't think I will ever experience again.
It breaks my heart seeing your wife and family have to face this. I could barely look at them without breaking down and crying. I tried my best to be there for them when I was down there but I almost ran off into the woods a couple times. I will try my best to stay in contact with them as much as I can. You know how hard it is for me to socialize and break out of this mental box I have been trapped in for most of my life. You allowed me to feel true freedom.
I will continue to try and enjoy every bit of this life because I know you loved all the adventures I have been having. I already had my first cry hike, I might try a few screams next time. You were excited that I wanted to find some land down that way to camp on and maybe build a little cabin on. This is still my dream, I just have to keep processing the fact you won't be there. I know the adventures you are experiencing right now are way beyond anything I can imagine. I just expected we would experience many more on this earth together before either of us were called to be with the Lord. You shared your faith and touched many people's lives. You fulfilled what you were placed on this earth to do. I will get through this.
I love you and I hope you got that hug I prayed about.
